First Appointment

I remember making the exciting call to my OBGYN’s office letting them know that I had a positive pregnancy test result and that we needed to schedule my first appointment. What I didn’t realize is how long the wait was going to be til that first appointment – 3 1/2 weeks! Those days dragged on, and I found myself constantly on the internet researching every little thing about early pregnancy. That was the biggest mistake I could have ever made, but felt like I couldn’t stop. It gave me this false sense of control while at the same time creating intense and unnecessary worry. I read about all these sad things that could happen and I was convinced it would all happen to me. You would think that after experiencing God’s “yes” to a long awaited prayer that my faith would have been unstoppable, but here I was doubting the very miracle God was growing inside of me. I’ve been struggling with fully and confidently trusting in God. It’s embarrassing to admit, but it’s true. I am realizing quickly that pregnancy and becoming a mom is going to force me to trust God like I never have before, because boy are there countless things that are and are going to be out of my control. One baby step at a time I suppose.

Well, the day finally came (February 4th to be exact) where Kyle and I went to the doctor for my “confirmation of pregnancy” visit. We saw my Dr. which was actually very simple and quick. We then got to go to the ultrasound room to get our first ultrasound. I was only about 7 weeks and 3 days at this point. I was really nervous because I didn’t know what to expect and I was convinced that there wasn’t anything inside me because I still didn’t feel very pregnant (no morning sickness, weird cravings, or other typical pregnancy symptoms that apparently everyone has except me. I guess I shouldn’t be complaining…) The ultrasound tech was super laid back and very friendly. She made me and Kyle feel very comfortable with the whole process. It took only a few seconds before she zoomed her screen in to show us this teeny tiny little human bean. She also captured it’s little heartbeat. You could actually watch it beating on the screen (no sound at this point). The moment I saw that, tears began to roll down my face. I really was pregnant. There really is a little baby growing inside of me. Why did I ever doubt it? I am such a Thomas. 😦 Kyle and I were holding hands the whole time and it was such a sweet, magical, amazing moment that I will never forget.

Kyle has been the biggest encouragement and positive spirit for me during this experience so far. He would (and still does) reassure me that everything was going to be ok. He would gently remind me to have a little bit of faith when all I wanted to do was doubt. He is my rock and he already is an amazing father.

The ultrasound tech had one piece of advice to offer (this was to Kyle while I was in the bathroom). She said to STAY OFF THE INTERNET. Kyle then proceeded to ask her if she would write that out on a prescription for me. hahaha! It was a good piece of advice and something my own husband had been telling me for weeks. When will I ever learn.

I remember leaving the Dr.’s office that day full of joy and relief. We got to take home a sonogram of our tiny little nugget who was only a little bit bigger than a centimeter long at that point. I think at this point Kyle and I were still the only people who knew (besides our best friends the Lyells and Dr. Mullett’s dental hygienist who I had to tell secretly because I had a cleaning back in January and she had to ask about any changes in my medical history. It was pretty funny – and she did a great job keeping it a secret!) We went to Wildflower for a celebratory brunch – and then we both headed back to work full to the brim with joy. A day I will never forget. Thanks be to God for this precious gift!